Randomness

Restlessness sums up my evening last night! I kept tossing and turning and at one moment thought I was dreaming, but wasn't sure!! I woke up (or at least I thought) at about 2am, my gut welling with excitement and anxiety. We had gotten our fingerprinting done and got word that we had pink!! I was celebrating in my own mind! I wish it were true, but it was only a dream...........for now!! This process is starting to affect my sleep again. I pray that it doesn't, but how can it not! There is a child that I have fallen in love with that lives at least 3000 miles away. (I really don't know how far, but am guessing and know that it is too far!) She has been given to us as a gift from God. She is a miracle. She is perfect!

I tried thinking of other things, but the only thing that kept coming to mind is my phone conversation with my best friend from high school! We maybe have talked three times on the phone over the past 20 years, we swap Christmas cards and letters and occasionally have emailed, but other then that - it hasn't been much! Yet - when we do connect, it's as if 20 years hasn't even happened! We are laughing and remembering the good times and the good people in our lives. She called me last night to tell me her brother lost his battle with cancer on Jan. 9th. My heart aches for the family and close friends. Todd, her brother, as I remember him, was silly and full of life! He had over 240 to his funeral. He touched so many lives. My prayers and thoughts go out to my friend, Shelly and her family as they try to continue their lives without her beloved brother. Please keep them in your prayers. Future holidays, birthdays and family celebrations will be hard. My hope is that they focus on the good memories they had.

It was a restless night, but I do have peace that everything is going to be fine!